deceiving the one closest to you

I don't want to think about it

Since last week’s focus on deception, I’ve been thinking about something my grandmother used to say. I’m not good at direct quotes, but the idea was:

Before you can lie to somebody else, you often have to lie to yourself.

As a child, I tried desperately to prove this false. Repeatedly. I could tell my mother something knowing full well that it was a blatant falsehood. Honesty was very important to her, and I often rejected that path. To my detriment. But the more I learn about this, the more I can now see that it was harming me more than I could fathom.

Let me be clear. I don’t think I was terribly worse than other children. My suspicion is that it’s quite typical to lie. Imagine my delight when I found What a tangled web we weave by Robert Trivers. The sneaky deceptions many of us were talking about last week seemed to only scratch the surface.

My question was: Why are we deceptive? Can we get closer to the root of this?

Trivers asserts right off that, ‘In order to lie better to others, we must first fool ourselves.’ Oh, this is going to be good. I can already feel it. He goes on to say:

‘Deception is a very deep feature of life. Viruses practise it, as do bacteria, plants, insects and a wide range of other animals. It is everywhere. Even within our genomes, deception flourishes as selfish genetic elements use deceptive molecular techniques to over-reproduce at the expense of other genes. Deception infects all the fundamental relationships in life: parasite and host, predator and prey, plant and animal, male and female, neighbour and neighbour, parent and offspring…It (deception) always takes the lead in life, while detection of deception plays catch-up.’

There’s something reassuring about knowing that deception happens on a cellular level. I’m not rationalising that it’s acceptable to be deceptive. Actually, quite the opposite. I’m truthfully more interested in the consequences.

Here’s how he continues:

‘At the heart of our mental lives, there seemed to be a striking contradiction – we seek out information and then act to destroy it. On the one hand, our sense organs have evolved to give us a marvellously detailed and accurate view of the outside world – we see the world in colour and 3D, in motion, texture, non-randomness, embedded patterns and a great variety of other features. Likewise for hearing and smell.

Together, our sensory systems are organised to give us a detailed and accurate view of reality, exactly as we would expect if truth about the outside world helps us to navigate it more effectively. But once this information arrives in our brains, it is often distorted and biased to our conscious minds. We deny the truth to ourselves. We project on to others traits that are true of ourselves – and then attack them. We repress painful memories, create completely false ones, rationalise immoral behaviour, act repeatedly to boost positive self-opinion and show a suite of ego-defence mechanisms.’

And there we have it. Take the truth, as we know it, and twist it round to use it somehow to our advantage. Maybe you read the above, and think to yourself, ‘Wait, I don’t do that. Do I? Am I automatically deceiving myself, and the more I deny it, the more unavoidable that it’s the case?’

That’s definitely not my belief. I can’t begin to know how much you deceive yourself. Or even if you deceive yourself at all. I wouldn’t even begin to assume that it’s a matter of being human. Not in the least.

But the question again is: Why when we’re deceiving others is it somehow inherent that we simultaneously deceive ourselves?

He asserts that while it might be true that we simply want to feel good, and self-deception is the easiest way to stay blithely unaware, that it’s foolish to do so. To wilfully disregard the obvious. And Trivers‘ main point seems to be that lying to others, while the truth is constantly swimming round in your brain, is actually too much data to mentally handle. It’s easier for you to just start believing the lies you tell yourself. It’s oddly more economical. Brainspace-wise.

He has a whole section on how to spot a liar, as well as one on self-deception and sex, which are both intriguing and deserve their own blogposts. He even devotes some virtual ink to body language when a woman’s ovulating. That’s sort of worth a bit of reflection. Once more, this and the part that follows it about whether deception is beneficial for marriage is something I could go on about at length. I reserve the right to do so another time. Would that be interesting for any of you reading? I mean, you can always see what he has to see about it by clicking on the link.

Yet what I’m drawn to…what I want to talk about is what he offers as a solution to all of this. Too often we’re provided with some sort of sociological premise such as this one, and it seems like it’s a foregone conclusion that we’re helpless to do anything to change it. That it’s somehow set in stone. I’m not so sure I would’ve brought this to you if I thought that was the case.

Here’s how Trivers argues against perpetuating the self-deception:

Self-deception, by serving deception, only encourages it, and more deception is not something I favour. I do not believe in building one’s life, one’s relationships, or one’s society on lies. The moral status of deceit with self-deception seems even lower than that of simple deception alone, since simple deception fools only one organism – but when combined with self-deception, two are being deceived.

In addition, by deceiving yourself, you are spoiling your temple or structure. You are agreeing to base your behaviour on falsehoods, with negative downstream effects that may be very hard to guess, yet intensify with time.’

Isn’t that great? Too much of what I hear/read about is so nihilistic. So jaded by what people seem to think of as the hopelessness of it all. Of modernity in general. But here’s somebody saying: Hey, it matters. What you do, what you say – it matters. Cynical is the easy way. The lazy road.

Then he gets personal:

‘In my life, self-deception is often experienced as a series of minor benefits followed by a major cost. I will be overly self-confident, project that image and enjoy some of the illusions, only to suffer a sharp reversal later on, based in part on the blindness induced by this overconfidence. I believe this is a general rule in life, that the cost of ignorance takes a while to kick in, while the benefit of self-deception may be immediate.’

This one I had to think about for a while. A long while. I’ve been writing this in my head for days, and it was here that I just had to take some time to let it sink in. Self-deception is the short cut. It’s the get-rich-quick scheme. It’s thinking that everyone else who’s working so hard to get something in life is a chump. If you need to ponder this one a few moments, don’t let me stop you.

Finally, he suggests a few ways in which one can go about attempting to counter self-deception:

‘There are other outlets, too: meditation, prayer, disclosure of trauma, even if only to a private journal. Friends are also useful as commentators on our ongoing life. In general, try to avoid overconfidence and unconsciousness. Showing off is a special kind of behaviour in which we tend both to be overconfident and deliberately to exaggerate our behaviour to impress others: it is one of the most dangerous things you can do.’

Oh, now wait a minute. Is he serious. It’s not enough for me to acknowledge all of this. I actually have to do something about it? No. You really don’t. The thing about the drama of life is that the more nonsense you create the more nonsense you have to deal with. But there’s nothing that says you have to stop creating nonsense. It doesn’t say that anywhere.

Isn’t it more pleasant to be unconscious? To continue to be blithely unaware?

Pleasant? Maybe.

Alive?

Not so much.

12 thoughts on “deceiving the one closest to you

  1. This is wonderful.

    OK. Thoughts I had upon my second and third re-read.

    1. What about KNOWING you’re deceiving yourself? I mean, you know you’re doing it, but you still do it? So it’s not so much deception, I guess, as putting a pretty face on something ugly. Like, you know, for example, that your job is just the worst. But if you told yourself the truth, how could you even get out of bed in the morning to go? So you white-lie yourself into, “It’s not that bad. And it’ll get better. And some people have worse jobs, surely?” Is that self-deception? Is that just making the best of a bad situation? Is it a little bit of both? Does it hurt anyone?

    2. I’ve totally told a lie so many times that I’ve started believing it. I loved that there was science there to back that up.

    3. I totally clicked on the article and read some. It’s late. I’ll read it in depth tomorrow. But the sex section was fascinating. Women do those things during ovulation? Unconsciously, I would imagine. I had no idea!

    3a. YES, that would be interesting for you to go on about in another blog post. Although I’m totally biased and I’d read you talking about something as banal as “the types of grass I saw while walking in the park” for three pages, I’m not overly picky.

    4. I was totally with this guy until the showing off part. I LOVE TO SHOW OFF. It’s kind of my thing. Can I just have that one thing? What if I’m totally not self-decepty about it? I’m not under any delusions. I admit it up front. I talk about my personal life on the internet. If that’s not showing off, I don’t know what is. But it makes me happy, and I’m not deceiving myself about what it is.

    This has opened up a lot, lot, LOT of thoughts.

    (Psst, still sorry I stole PUAs from you. But not if it made this happen.)

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    • 3a and 4

      “types of grass” – me too. i would be really happy to hear more about this, though, and am still thinking about ‘displacement activities’ which i think i first read about as a kid reading the big book “manwatching” by desmond morris which i got for xmas when it first came out in 1977. i would have been 15. even though there was THIS BIG BOOK i didn’t realize it was a studyable subject, which is a shame.

      i didn’t really get the thing about showing off. especially since it elaborates itself out to all forms of artistic endeavor.

      hmmm…..

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      • I think since elaine4queen thinks I’m safe to show off then I won’t feel bad about it. I feel like she’s a good indicator of what is and isn’t a good idea for me to do. I shall continue to show off, interwebs! So there!

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      • i do.

        i can see how it might be used as a way of covering up shyness, but i don’t think that is the worst thing a person ever did. and there would be NO COMEDY without it. none.

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    • 1. I think that’s a defence mechanism. And until you had a better option, many would consider it prudent to stay in a safe gig.

      2. There’s an old saying that the prisons are filled with people who say they didn’t do it. I know the message is that liars lie and criminals profess their innocence, but what I think when I hear that:

      People who did crimes rationalised it to the degree that eventually they think they didn’t actually do it. Even when they did. Except for falsely convicted people. Those people deserve it by association (I don’t really believe that).

      3. I think I got the best parts of the article, but there’s plenty more to digest there.

      4. Just to be clear to both Elaine and you: I’m totally not against showing off. He’s not talking about theatre. The rules are always different when it comes to the arts. Always.

      ‘This has opened up a lot, lot, LOT of thoughts.’>>That was definitely the point. The more I get you to think, the more I’m doing my job.

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  2. So I’m safe in showing off, as long as I say it’s me being artsy. Awesome. I like that I operate under a completely different set of rules. I KNEW that theater degree would come in handy someday. TOLD YOU, DAD.

    You always get me to think. You do a good job.

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  3. Oh dear, this has made me think that my whole life has been a lie in one way or another mainly because of accepting unpleasant situations when it seemed too complicated to change them. Is this another form of showing off as in acting the martyr?

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    • I’ve thought about this one, and there’s no way I could even begin to answer this question. I doubt you actually expect me to, but the question of whether playing the martyr is a form of showing off – that’s certainly an interesting topic.

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  4. Wow. There’s so much in this post that rings true with my own experience and values…

    I know that personally, I don’t feel good when deceiving myself. I think that over the past few years, I’ve become progressively more self-aware, and I’ve become more aware, in particular, of the times in which I’ve felt really happy around people and really happy while alone, and the times where I’ve felt really unhappy, and I’ve figured out some of the things that these experiences have in common so that I’ve been able to replicate the happy times and minimize the unhappy times.

    One thing that I’ve found very consistently is that the times I feel happiest with people are the times when I am being fully honest with myself and fully expressive of what I am really thinking and what I really want. It’s like having all the positive aspects of being drunk–no barriers and inhibitions–without the dulled experience of the world.

    Similarly, in the times when I’ve been unhappy with people, I often have been thinking in a fundamentally different way, thinking in terms of trying to impress people, in the mindset that being myself isn’t good enough so I have to present some sort of front to the world.

    I also have found that, when alone, when I tend to feel depressed, if I journal about my thought process, it tends to have a lot of fairly irrational (and usually outright false) things about it. These include both false statements that I believe, and fallacious lines of deductive reasoning. I think that believing falsehoods, cumulatively, has a negative effect on the psyche…the more falsehoods you start to believe, the more your behaviors start to be maladaptive, because your view of the world doesn’t fit with reality, and you start losing the ability to actually get what you want through your actions and reasoning. When you are reasoning based on truths, you are better able to get what you want, and you feel happier. At least, this has been my experience.

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